Because Tom Hanks is the solution...

So instead of studying I'm watching Sleepless in Seattle.

Mostly I am doing this to avoid the stress I am feeling about school and money. I woke up this morning feeling on the edge of panic. I do this to myself of course. The stress is not good. It makes me feel sick. It makes it easier to get sick. It makes me want to eat poorly. To spend. To avoid.

People always say that it's never bad as you imagine when you get stressed about things. My experience would suggest this is only sometimes true. Most of the time things aren't as bad as they seem. And then sometimes they are. This year has been the year when things were bad. Sometimes. So the stress seems more reasonable.

I definitely think my obsession with the "FUTURE" is the reason for the worry. Instead of worrying about today or even tomorrow, I find myself worrying about 3 years from now, 5 years, 10 years. 

So, as part of the healthy part of the project I do need to worry less. And so in the words of 'Sam' or Tom Hanks if you will - "I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breathe in and out all day long."

And that is that.